On the Chain Gang

So I have worked full time for the past 2 weeks. Full time in the dental world is 4 days a week so I am finishing up my last day tomorrow (thank the LORD). I seriously do not know how I did this prior to kids! I am DEAD at the end of a day and have no drive to exercise or make dinner or stand upright. Working combined with getting the kids to school, lunches, swimming, skating and playdates and I am tired.

Last night was awful on many levels. First, this month's PMS is like triple packed. Either I had it easy the past few months or I'm going to get off easy the months after this one coming because I was like a ravenous bear going through the kitchen last night. Nothing was off limits. I may confess that I may have exhibited semi-eating disorder characteristics during my raid. There was a chocolate chip bag raid, the chew, the "hmm these taste like wax" and finally the spit out into the garbage. IT can have those waxy calories. Is that normal? So I had the guilt complex following me around the kitchen. I would open the freezer, look at the Ice Cream, take it out of the freezer, look at the fat grams, put in back in the freezer and go onto the fridge again. Then the cupboards...hmm granola bars? nah...too many carbs, mini animal cookies? no the kids need those for school. I did manage to ditch the guilt and eat a Rice Krispie bar, Curves bar and a tonne of almonds. Not great but not totally bad either.

I went this afternoon and signed up at the local gym for a 2 year contract. Hopefully they can help me gain my energy back. I go on Wednesday for my "Real Age" test with "Dan". I am scared...what if it says I am really 50. EEk. This test better not involve a scale or all bets are OFF. Dan will be testing himself cause I do not need THAT much real in my life THAT early in the morning thanks. Plus AF will be around by then and I will be looking like a Blow fish with a peanut allergy after eating a PB &J. Hmm maybe I should go make a call.